When I went into middle school the feeling was the same but I got it when the middle school awards ceremonies were near. It was less of an excitement to go play outside and more to see what awards I got that year. I, being the smart-aleck over-acheiver I was, always came out with straight A's. Let's face it, the 22 year old me would've beat the 14 year-old me up hard core; then taken me out for ice cream and bought myself some jeggings, taught me how to use a straightener, and explain what kissing a boy is like. Anyway, middle school had the same feeling only with a tad more anxiety.
High School end of year time was still the same feeling only with a lot more stress. I was yearbook editor so end of the year meant finishing everything and getting it to the printer and handing them out. It was a big ol' deal. By this point I definitely wouldn't say I was cool but I did have friends so end of the year meant parties, bon fires, and sleepovers. It meant trips and camping. It meant looking back at the tough year and saying, I did it, I survived and next year is gonna be so much better. Still it felt like hope and otter pops.
In College the feeling usually feels like finals, books, and long hours at the library. It's not miserable though. I loved being at the library all day. I love making it my only priority. I love getting to the library, neglecting my studying and watching Netflix all day. Let's face it, that was the real finals week was like. I love cramming until midnight the night before and waking up feeling uprepared and scared I'll fail out of college. I love when that last final is over and I get to walk away looking forward to the summer.
Today was the last day of classes, the last day of work, and the last day of ATV News. I'm moving to South Carolina in two weeks to start a full-time job. For at least the next five years I most likely won't be in school at all. So that feeling was about 1000 times bigger than usual. I've been doing this for the last 18 years of my life. Now, I won't. Now I start a new chapter. Now I go on another adventure. I'm gonna highlight some people in the next few posts. People who have changed my life. Without them, I wouldn't be who I am. You already know who you are. You are the ones that made me want something more than just happiness. You wanted me to reach for the best, to be better, and to love more than I thought I could.
Until then, I'm going to hold onto this feeling. The one that says, "Go out and play before the world comes crashing down, because it's field day, and you need a day off"
~Emily
High School end of year time was still the same feeling only with a lot more stress. I was yearbook editor so end of the year meant finishing everything and getting it to the printer and handing them out. It was a big ol' deal. By this point I definitely wouldn't say I was cool but I did have friends so end of the year meant parties, bon fires, and sleepovers. It meant trips and camping. It meant looking back at the tough year and saying, I did it, I survived and next year is gonna be so much better. Still it felt like hope and otter pops.
In College the feeling usually feels like finals, books, and long hours at the library. It's not miserable though. I loved being at the library all day. I love making it my only priority. I love getting to the library, neglecting my studying and watching Netflix all day. Let's face it, that was the real finals week was like. I love cramming until midnight the night before and waking up feeling uprepared and scared I'll fail out of college. I love when that last final is over and I get to walk away looking forward to the summer.
Today was the last day of classes, the last day of work, and the last day of ATV News. I'm moving to South Carolina in two weeks to start a full-time job. For at least the next five years I most likely won't be in school at all. So that feeling was about 1000 times bigger than usual. I've been doing this for the last 18 years of my life. Now, I won't. Now I start a new chapter. Now I go on another adventure. I'm gonna highlight some people in the next few posts. People who have changed my life. Without them, I wouldn't be who I am. You already know who you are. You are the ones that made me want something more than just happiness. You wanted me to reach for the best, to be better, and to love more than I thought I could.
Until then, I'm going to hold onto this feeling. The one that says, "Go out and play before the world comes crashing down, because it's field day, and you need a day off"
~Emily
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